This blog started in November 2004.
It is 6 years old.
This blog URL didn't change since it was first created.
It has been consistently updated monthly if not weekly.
Carries fond memories of when I was still in Commonwealth Secondary School.
Lots of ups and downs.
This blog existed.
It won't be deleted.
Time to switch to a new blogging service. Here's my new URL ya'all:
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Christina Aguilera's Bionic.
"Lift Me Up"
So the pain begins
As the music fades
And I'm left here with
With more than I can take
If you lift me up
Just get me through this night
I know I'll rest tomorrow
And I'll be strong enough to try
When the static clears
And all is said and done
A will realize
That we all need someone
If you lift me up
Just get me through this night
I know I'llrest tomorrow
And I'll be strong enough to try
So when you see me crashing
And there's nowhere left to fall
Will you lift me even higher
To rise above this all
If you lift me up
Said if you lift me up
Said if you lift me up
Will it be higher
When you see me crashing
And theres nowhere left to fall
Will you lift me even higher
To rise above this all
If you lift me up
Said if you lift me up
If you lift me up
Just get me through this night
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Outstanding song.
Missed 3 water trainings already. Truthfully ? On purpose. What's going on. With me. Really. New change of rule doesn't bother me at all. I read the comments written by the alumnis. Geez. Fucked up alumnis. What makes them think that SP can produce outstanding players every single year. Joko, Jun Yin, Arif, Hafi and me have ever asked before why the seriousness ? No, really why ? FUCK. I think they are the reasons why my batch is in this state. We get chased off. And sometimes I think am I still the stupid one left behind clinging onto something that won't do you any good. Where's the fun ?
If the rules are confirmed though, I'd love for Alex to play IVP thhis year. Haha. Just end this shit.
I can't focus fully in school since last week. Lots to memorise for the upcoming test. Tests right after the selection. Perfect timing. Let's see how I'm going to handle this.
Headache the whole day today. And my nose kind of keep smelling blood. No idea why. Need a haircut.
Dilemma. bullshit politics - in school pool.
Farhan
Who would have thought ?There'd be only me and hafi left.
And there's the junior fighting each other to get a place in the IVP
team.
Honest truth ? Iv had enough of fighting alrdy. I just dun care. That
was like the last straw. Why'd we have to play like a life is in
question ? It's only a competitive sport. Its not like every batch
could produce wonderful players. I'm jus sick of it all. It's like
okay why should I continue coming? For 2 good reasons. For Hafi. And
for Jiajie and yx who WANs to help me get my ivp medal. Those are the
only reasons. When u join sp canoepolo, you join a new path of
uncertain future. And that is a fact.
Selection this week. Fuck that.
My best buddy's going for his hand op tomorrow. His face already spell
the special word to me: freedom. Haha notice I have to use the word
freedom ? It's as if We're caught in a cage like dat. Wish him speedy
recovery of his hand.
I told my mom that next year, I don't want any photos taken as
mementos. Ive had enough memories etched in my mind. A good lesson
I'll nvr forget.
Upgraded my MacBook hdd to 500GB !! Awesome shit. Paid from my own
pocket. :]
Stop pushing it you guys. All of you. I will explode.
Sent from farhan's iPhone. :]
Camp ended. Probably my last camp in poly too.
Kinda not so fun like last year's.
Haha.Lots of flashbacks on second night. Just alone.
I see their nicks and status spelling one word: Freedom.
Really wonder how much have their life changed. Issit better ? Don't
they miss going back at all ? Angry man.
Played a full length game for the first time in 2 weeks. That bad. And
it's really tiring. Need to get the engine started again.
Selection's next Sunday. Wad selection ? We're so in it. Arif's right
and he got me thinking again. Hmm. We are so damned. But heck, we've
received shit for such a long time. ^^
Speaking of which I must say sometimes you don't know when the seniors
will be fuckers at certain point of times. Dats probably why we don
click. They think they are entertaining when it's obvious it's an
insult they are shooting. Fuck it.
Damn. I think I've shrunk. Can't buy my clothes wif ease lol. My legs
are smaller than size 8. WTF. Waist 28 is super loose for me. Wts.
Issit me or the clothes ???? Can't buy shit today. Got myself a new
pair of running shoes. :] imma run faster now. Hehe.
My body's a little weird. I get faster as I run longer D. I always
lose out at the start but catch up like crazy later on. Haha. It's not
mental man. I've tested myself.
Havainas at 50% off. Gonna check it out tmr. :]
FYP is driving me a little red and green and white.
Wednesday slots are back. Haha.
Sent from farhan's iPhone. :]
JB opens was bullshit. Referees should suck their own d***. think I
gained 1.5kg from the trip which is awesome !No rowing again for this period. WTF. I feel like I'm screwed.
Everyones screwed. Lol. So we are heading out to Kallang tomorrow -
again. It's been so long. Except that the last time, there were more
people. :/
Ran to botanic yesterday for the first time wif my batch teammates.
There was only me and Arif anyway. I sure can pace a long D. I'm not
engineered for sprints haha. If i can last that long then how come I'm
tired easily when on water. Hmm weird again. Mental I guess ? Anyway
I'm aching like crazy now. Still can row tmr. :)
I'm finally understanding my lessons in class. Slowly trying to get it
right. Not giving up. Probably only having problems with LFC's class.
He's a little weird. Haha. Schl has been smooth with lots of free
times. FYP might be jeopardizing it soon. :/
Oh well. Early morning row tmr. :]
Farhan's iPhone
Schools going fine for me.
I looked at the photos. I just realized what I had really wanted to
achieve. Actually I wasn't so bad. Just that I couldn't all the stress
at that time. 2 years ago at this time I was excited and anxious for
answers. Now I could only dream about what would happen if I stayed.
The wings.I keep thinking something big is going to happen but have no idea what
it is. Could be something good or bad I dont know. I am kind of
stressed these days. :/
Malaysia trip this weekend. Canoe polo. Hmm hope it's a fruitful and
fun one.
Job interview tmr. WANs the extra cash for personal spenditure haha. :)
Farhan's iPhone
A week ago, I'd woke up to an exciting qurter finals canoe polo match.I cam extra early today. 9am. Like wth. Training starts at 11am. Is
that hardworking ? Nahh. I'm whining. Haha. I'm deprived of my that
extra 1 hour sleep. And right now, I'm sitting alone at moberly
theatre. Lots of mosquitoes.
Can't believe school starts tomorrow. It's a new semester again. Year
3. A really big deal. It's my final year here. Gonna be meetin my
classmates once again tmr. I'm like sitting here thinking back about
the time I've spent durig the holidays. At sp swimming pool all the
while. The competition, politics and training. Lost teammates. The
very few times I managed to go out and catch a movie. It ends today.
Haha.
There's definitely going to be not much of a lesson tomorrow. Wonder
what we are gonna do. I would love yo watch kick ass.. Haha.
And the worse part of it all ? Waking up at 6.45am. Ever since last
semester ended. I've been wakin up at 11am every single day. This has
got to be the most difficult part of adapting.
IVP selections. Coming up. And it's sadd that I've got no team to play
with for nat champs. Yf have said before that the worse thing in canoe
polo is not about how lousy you are, it's when you have no team to
play with. And it's happening right now. Haix.
Farhan's iPhone
SPCPOC 2010 ended finally.Not that I wanted it to end quickly. It was by far the only
competition where I get to play like a normal player and play a lottt
of games. So the question I have for myself: will this be the last
Opens competition for me ??
I enjoy canoe polo just like how u enjoy taking photos with ur DSLR.
It will soon all be over. Temporary or permanently ? I still ...
4th place in ranking. It's hard to ignore wad others think sometimes.
Don't know whether I should feel happy about it or not.
Timetables out! Crazy Tuesday. More Indian lecturers. Haha! More
accents I suppose. More free times for FYP! Not gonna disappoint ch
and Winnie ! I may not know as much as them but I love doing
research ! Gonna chiong and do this right.
1 more week of holidays. I dun feel a thing. I'm not complaining
either. It's like I'm ok and Rdy for anything goes. Year 3. So old.
Army next year. Haha.
Team dinner just now at fish n co. Damn impromptu. Zi wei introduced
new iPhone game. Lol. Sure up your vocabulary by a bit. Haha.
It's goin to be desert training tmr. As in there's not much pple. Haha
it's just after comps.
And lastly I'm damn broke and my shure gave me issues.
Looking forward to whatever is to come for me ! 1 more week of
slacking ! :]
Farhan's iPhone
I stumbled upon this photo.
6 months ago.
Farhan
Pass damn lanjiao ball. I know.
It's not the polo trainings. Haha. :/
Been missing out on classmates outing a lot. Not picking up phone calls by them. I am deeply sorry for not joining. You know I want to. :]
Not answering becoz I dun wanna talk about the topic again. Sorry pal. :/
My teammate's acting up again. Retarded. In what way did I offend you ? Why so childish ? Lame shit really.
Gonna be a tough weekend. Gotta chiong ! Out with my mom this week and aunt's getting married this Sunday ! Haha. My favourtite spread of food please. Corn rice and all. eeerrmmphh.
Farhan
